fight like a warrior.

moving to Toronto made me realize one thing; you’ve got to fight for the things you want in life. whether it is a job, a university acceptance, friendship, relationship, you want to become an actor, name it all. not that i hadn’t realized it before, but now more than ever, i’ve somewhat come to understand what the whole idea behind it all happens to be. people will always get in your way, because after all, we all want to succeed, or i’m assuming so. and sadly enough, there isn’t enough room for all of us to succeed in our society, and the only person in charge of whether you will succeed or not is you. yes, you! all you. and of course, in order to succeed at something, you’ve got to be good at it, and you need to be focused. the most depressing thing is when you hear people say “i wanna be famous” or “i wanna be rich” or “i wanna be a movie star”, what the F does that even mean? people aren’t rich just to be rich, there’s always a reason behind it. and same goes with your favorite celebrities. they aren’t were they are simply because they prayed to become “famous”. they’ve work hard (or most of them did) to get where they are at the moment… and are probably working even harder now that they’ve got all these responsibilities.

after moving here, i was without a job for about a month. i did request a transfer from my old work before moving, but you know, to people you’re just another random person on this planet, so your transfer is the last of their priorities. i had to contact the job here about five times, and meet with them in person about three times before i finally got the job. and yes, it did make me feel unwanted, like they didn’t care, didn’t wanna hire me. i was being dramatic and all. but instead of giving up, i just kept trying until i was finally given a starting date. i probably wasn’t their first priority, but that doesn’t mean they didn’t wanna hire me. so if someone says no to you, don’t take it too seriously, just prove yourself to them, and then see what happens.

and same story goes with the second job i’m currently trying to get (yes i know… workaholic much). i applied. got a call back only three weeks later. was scheduled for an interview with the co-manager. then later on was called back for an interview with the manager. then was told by the manager that i had potential and would most likely be hired, and would hear back from them in about a week. a week passes by, no call back. so i follow up, the manager thanks me for following up and says they’re in the middle of all these administration changes and that i should be getting a call back in about two weeks. three weeks pass by, no call back. i freak out. feel unwanted again. feel depressed. feel annoyed. feel upset. don’t wanna call back cause i don’t wanna look obsessed and annoy them. then this morning i was like “so what? why not just call.” took some courage, but i did. then i find out that the old manager was actually fired, and that they hadn’t had access to the administration files and stuff yet. funny eh? i almost peed my pants. all that stress, and for what? nothing. nothing was ever about me. nothing was wrong with me. i was given a new interview date, which will be on monday. hopefully i’m lucky and get the job.

oh, and i just finished registering for my classes for the fall and winter semesters. and thank god i was able to keep my fridays off both semesters. i also tried to make my schedules so that i’d be able to fit in as many work shifts as possible. university isn’t free…! i CANNOT wait to start university though. it’s going to be amazing. i haven’t been in school for a year, i feel braindead. and i’ll be studying something i love (photography) what more could i ask?

so be a warrior. your own little warrior, fighting for all these things you want. and it will get you places. i promise.

oh, and i’ve been posting a lot of new pictures to my deviantart. please check them out by clicking here. and let me know what you think? thank you <3