last day of september.

where is autumn? it feels like it went right from summer to winter. it has been so cold the past few days, and today especially. i hung out with Sandrine earlier today, we just went to Starbucks for coffee, and when i got back home i could barely feel my fingers as i was typing on my keyboard. i have been looking forward to autumn for so long, and now that summer is over i kinda regret looking forward to it. maybe i had forgotten that it’s actually very cold in autumn sometimes, especially when you live in Canada, but as far as i remember, it wasn’t this cold out in september last year! and today is the last day of september. it’s crazy. i can clearly remember september just starting, and october being weeks and weeks away. time definitely passes by way too quickly. i need to start living like there’s no tomorrow.

i posted a new look on my lookbook, you can check it out by clicking here. and i know, i’m not wearing colors once again, but as i already said before, i don’t like to wear colors, they just don’t look good on me, and wear colors in autumn? hell, no. but it’s more of a personal thing. maybe one day i’ll get over my problem and wear some very bright clothes that help people spot you from miles away, but for now, i’ll stick to black, white and grays. and if you aren’t familiar with lookbook, or simply don’t care for it, i also uploaded the picture on deviantart, you can check it out by clicking here.

i thought i was fine last night, wasn’t sick anymore, and i did feel fine, up until this afternoon. i started coughing every once in a while, and i have this headache, it makes me feel so out of it. motivation is so hard to find when you feel sick. whatever what you do, whatever what you have, it’s like you can’t be in a good mood. and i honestly can’t even really think of one thing in my life right now that could make me truly unhappy and yet i still feel depressed. so i blame being sick. as far as i’m concerned, it’s the only thing making me feel like death right now.

feels like i’ve been hit by a bus.

why the hell am i awake at seven am? well, i did go to bed at 8:30pm last night… so it would only make sense that i would be awake by now. i woke up yesterday morning feeling sick, my throat was itchy, my ears too, and i kept sneezing. not a very good feeling at all. it seriously felt like i had just been hit by a bus, not that i know how that feels, but probably not so good! i took medications, and drank a lot of water, and lemon green tea too. and also i went to bed early, so hopefully i get better really quick.. i already feel a little better right now. i think i got sick because i didn’t get much rest lately… and i had such busy days over the past week… also there was a huge weather change overnight on thursday, one day it was super hot and the next it felt like winter! and those weird weather changes often make you sick. or maybe i have some bad allergies. either way, i am sick, and i don’t get sick that often so whenever i do it’s like the end of the world. i even had to cancel on a friend last night, and i never do that! i’m one of those people who can’t say no when you ask them things. and my friend asked me if i wanted to go see a movie with him cause nobody else could go, and i said no.. and explained that i was feeling like death! and i’m kinda glad i didn’t go, the long night of rest did me some good.

i’ve been taking a lot of pictures over the past week, i uploaded one of them on my lookbook, you can check it out by clicking here. i love taking pictures during autumn, they always look the best. and it’s cold enough to wear coats, and boots, and i love it! i should be uploading a lot more pictures over the next few days. i was going to post them all at the same time… but i think it’s a better idea to just post one every few days instead of bombing you with tons of new pictures all at once.

i had a job interview last thursday, and it went alright… the lady interviewing me was funny, and we kept laughing. i guess it could somehow be a positive sign, she’s supposed to call me back soon. she had a few other interviews. and since i don’t have any experience in retail stores.. well someone with more experience would definitely be chosen over me. stores hate when they have to train new employees. she said she’ll call me back even if i’m not hired, so that’s nice. i hate when they just keep you waiting forever. i also applied in two other places, but haven’t heard back from them yet. and if anything.. my uncle said he could get me a job at the company he works for. so at least i have options. i need a job soon though! i can’t just keep waiting. hopefully the lady from the store will call me back soon just so i know if i need to find something else.

customer service.

sorry if i haven’t been updating the blog over the past few days, i was visiting family on the “country side” of Quebec. well, it wasn’t really on the country side, like they live kindof by a city, but still! if you compare it to montreal, it sure does seem like it! but it was fun. i hadn’t seen my grandmother and aunts and cousins in so long. my family all live very far away from montreal, so it makes it hard for us to see each other that often. what i really liked is they live right by Ottawa, which is the capital of Canada – in case you did not know – and it’s a nice city. we went there on the saturday, and i actually liked it. a lot of people who live there always complain about how boring, ugly and annoying of a city it is, but visiting was definitely fun. it kinda reminded me of a smaller toronto.

visiting family is always fun thought, especially when it’s some kind of reunion. there’s a lot of good food! the first night we had some amazing lasagna and salad. it was so good! it does get a little bit weird when your whole family is drinking wine over dinner, cause.. family dinners usually last a while so by the end of the dinner everyone’s very tipsy, or just plain drunk. and then they start talking about such random things. it was a lot of fun though! the funniest part is when my aunts wanted a picture together, and in every picture they looked very drunk/buzzed, like they had their eyes half closed. and i kept having to re-take the picture and i was getting annoying. i kept saying “omggg open your eyes, they’re like half closed.” and they’d say “what are you talking about?!?!” and then they’d open them so wide that they’d just end up looking like weirdos!

and what is this lovely green thing in the middle of the post you might wonder? it’s grass! i was taking pictures of my family outside the house, and then i got bored so i was laying on the grass taking pictures of my aunt’s dog, but he wasn’t being very into it so i ended up taking pictures of the grass… but i thought it looked cool. with the whole focus effect.

oh, and i think i found a job, and why am i saying it like this? well because it isn’t for sure yet, but my friend works for this one company here, and she might try to get me in. i’d work for customer service or something, and she said it pays very well. i doubt that customer service is the most amazing job in the world, but i haven’t heard from the places i applied to yet, so why not try it? and i doubt it’s that hard, you don’t even have to deal with customers in person. i’m gonna send them my resume probably by the end of the day, and hopefully i’ll get this one. the only big downside is the company is about an hour away from my house. but that’s about how far my school was, so it shouldn’t be too bad! and my friend told me that the first month of work is basically training, and you’re still paid full salary. it’s kinda cool! and the training apparently feels a little bit like school. i always wished i’d be paid to go to school…