18 years old.
college student.
awkward.
complicated.
canadian.
i dream life.
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colourless colour

i haven’t been taking many new pictures lately, and that’s because i’ve been busy with summer school and other things. but good news! i’m done one of my classes now. the intensive humanities one which i had everyday from nine to twelve (IT WAS AWFUL) so i’ll now have more time to work on things, and just get things done! no more waking up at 6:30am for me. and also i’m glad i now have some free time, i’ll be able to work on something new for Impolite, you probably noticed how most the products are sold out, and i honestly don’t feel like getting more of the same designs, it seems redundant and boring. i have a few ideas, i just have to get working on them. i did a few sketches, but i need to do a lot more before i get a clear idea of what the direction will be for the new stuff. it’s summer right now, so definitely no hoodies this time, maybe some tank tops, and definitely t-shirts. but i’m also considering having new products as well, but i’ll keep this secret for now!

i added two pictures to the gallery (the link to see them is at the bottom of this post) i’ve taken them yesterday. i didn’t really have a theme, my main idea was really just to take a simple shot for my lookbook but i ended up liking them a lot. i like how the background turned out in them, it has a autumn feel to them, and i think it’s quite amazing considering the fact that we’re in the middle of summer right now!

oh, and today is Canada day, yes.. we call it like that, at least most people do. or if you want, i’ll use the real term, which hasn’t been used in years, Dominion day. i guess it’s pretty much to Canada what Independence day is to the United States. people get drunk and celebrate. not really my thing, but still. i thought i’d wish a happy Canada day to all my fellow Canadians! we are thought to be America’s hat, but really, that’s quite silly. Canada is awesome!

click here to check out the new pictures!

listen to: martin solveig feat. dragonette – boys & girls



a driver? me?

my intensive humanities class is almost over, tomorrow is my last class. but guess what, i’ve got a 1400 words paper due and my final exam is also tomorrow. it’s awful! i feel like it all happened so fast, and to be honest with you, i only have the introduction done so far on my paper. i do know what i’ll be writing it about, and i have a lot of the information gathered together, but that’s pretty much it. and wanna know the best part? it was due today, but i’m not going to class. first, because i haven’t done the paper, but also because i have my driver’s license theory test at 10:50 (my class is 9 to 12) so, you see, i couldn’t have gone anyway. of course, i could’ve showed up to hand in the paper and then left, but! it isn’t done! i’m stupid.

i studied a lot for my driver’s license test though, i know that a lot of you think it’s a super easy test and that people shouldn’t even study anyway, but you should know that almost half the people fail the test the first time they do it (according to statistics) which is pretty pathetic… i don’t really feel like paying $60 for something that i’m just gonna end up failing anyway. so i did buy the $20 book with all the information you need to know before you become a driver, most the things inside are pretty obvious.. and i did the 290 questions practice test on their website and.. most the answers were pretty obvious as well, want an example ?

on a sunny day, you are about to enter a tunnel. what should you do?
A) Close your eyes and speed up until the end of the tunnel.
B) Prepare your eyes to go from light to dark.
C) Turn on your safety lights.

the right answer was B), and i seriously had to think twice before answering. all the answers sound so stupid. how are you supposed to get your eyes “ready” for a dark tunnel? it doesn’t make much sense to me.

or another one was:

you still have a little while of a drive left, and you feel tired. what should you do?
A) Take an illegal substance.
B) Drink a very strong coffee.
C) Stop and rest a bit.

so, see what i mean by stupid questions? i had to go through 290 of them last night. it took forever, and seemed pointless, but i still didn’t get right about 20 questions (mostly the ones about signs, or weird laws like apparently you need to be parked exactly 5 meters away and no less from a police office). and at least, if i get these questions in my test today, i’ll know the answer! and god knows they love to fool people by including stupid questions in the tests, so go me! i’m ready!

and the place were i need to go do my test is so far away. it’s like a forty minutes metro ride, plus about a fifteen minutes bus drive. lame! my dad is still sleeping, so i can’t ask him to drive me. but hopefully he’ll wake up soon, and drive me there. being in the metro for that long is annoying. very annoying. i need to go get ready now, wish me good luck. so many things i need to accomplish today.

listen to: la roux – bulletproof



measure for measure

i had never read anything from Shakespeare before last night, you can call me uncultured, but i never saw the point and never was forced to do it for school before. i think his texts probably were amazing 200 years ago, when English wasn’t as modern and simplified as it is today… but now it’s way off. i don’t see the point of reading something i can barely understand. it’s like reading a story in german when you don’t know german… well to me reading a story in old english is the same thing. i’d rather use my time to read something i can actually understand instead of showing off to other people by reading stuff i need to use a dictionary for every word. but anyway… i guess i read one of the easiest ones of his, because it wasn’t actually THAT hard to understand. i got the main idea.. which was the point i think. and we also only had an excerpt to read, which was about 15 pages long. it was a story about someone being condemned, so we had to read it for my humanities/social studies class. and i’m not criticizing his work, i just think it’s not very appropriate for our century.

and since i have an intensive summer course, we have about 30 pages to read a night in our course textbook, and every class we have a quiz on the reading just so the teacher knows we actually do the reading assigned, and today we had one on the Shakespeare story, of course. once we’re done with the quiz, the teacher always picks them up, and then redistribute them randomly so we can correct them together. so you usually correct somebody else’s quiz.

the first question of the quiz was: ” name two of the characters in the play.” and the person i was correcting wrote ” angelo, isabella, duke, claudio, lucio, juliet and i could name so many more… ” at first i only saw that she wrote many names, so i thought “good for her..” and then i see that little comment she wrote after the names. how hilarious! how vain! the teacher clearly asked for two names, and she wrote down six of them, but also.. included some conceited comment as well. i thought it was pretty funny. i wrote “WHAT?” super big next to her answer. as big as her ego, and big enough so she notices it!

so you guessed, it’s still all about school, and work and work! the good news is i’ve been working on a project, and won’t tell you now what exactly it is because i want to keep it secret for a while, and basically until my ideas are a little bit more clear. i will be working intensively on it for the next month, and then i’ll be able to tell you all about it! i might not be able to wait that long, i love to share my ideas, so yeah, we’ll see.

oh, and in my humanities class we have a 1500 words paper due for friday. the point of the paper is to relate an ethical issue or a few ethical issues to the program we were in during college. i was in arts and culture… so it’s kinda hard to think of ethical issues related to art. well, there’s a few! but it’s still harder than let’s say if you were in science, or social studies. but i went and talked to the teacher after class today, and she was being very helpful. at first i was planning on doing it on copyright issues (which is one of my favorite topic, i’ve used it in papers before, you probably know if you’ve been reading this blog for a while) but then i was worried that the paper would end up being too informative rather than argumentative. when i was talking to her we ended up concluding that it would be better for me to do it on censorship! why didn’t i think about this before! such a smart idea. censorship is one of the most fascinating topics. especially when you compare different countries, and cultures. so i’ll do it on that. i have four days left to do it, not bad! and if i hand it in next monday instead of friday i will only lose five marks. not too bad either for three extra days!

and yes, if you didn’t guess already, that is a picture of shakespeare that i found using the amazing and lovely Google.

listen to: paolo nutini – candy




all that jazz

so a while ago i posted on my twitter that maybe i was gonna go see Chicago (the musical) in Montreal, it’s here june 16th to june 21st, and i’ve never seen a Broadway before.. so i’ve been planning on going. two weeks ago, i asked a friend to go with me, and bought the tickets online with my credit card. then, a week later, visa calls me and tells me there was some kind of problem with the online transaction and that basically, i’ve got no tickets and should try to buy them again. WHAT! a week later… all the good seats are gone. i told my parents about the situation and was very upset. i always wanted to see Chicago especially, and i had been avoiding seeing the movie just in case i would eventually end up seeing the broadway.

anyway.. so that was it. no more Chicago in montreal for me. i just gave up. i didn’t want to have to sit super far away from the stage, there’s just no point. and then, two days ago, around lunch time, my mom calls me and guess what! she got us tickets to go see Chicago that night, and not just that! first row! middle seats! i almost passed out! i’ve got no clue how she even was able to get such tickets.

so we went. my mom and i. (i feel bad that i didn’t end up going with my friend, after all it was the plan…. so screw you visa… but then my lovely mama saved the day) and it was seriously amazing. i doubt it would’ve been the same sitting super far away. i had never seen one before as i said earlier, so it was a very good first time. they were all great actors/singers/dancers (yes.. they really do it all) and the story was interesting. i doubt i’d go see musicals that often… most of them are super cheesy. i think that’s why i wanted to go see chicago so bad, cause it’s more drama. it’s a story about murder, and all. like seriously, the lion king or chicago? the right answer seems clear to me..

other than that, the past days have pretty much been about summer school. i have classses everyday, morning and night, so i haven’t go much time to do things. it’s a lot of homework every night, and i don’t get much rest. i was taking a lovely nap earlier to catch up some rest, and about an hour later some of my mom’s friends came to pick something up and my dog started barking like it was the end of the world. i think he didn’t stop for like ten minutes. it was so upsetting. it’s the worst, and most annoying way to get waken up.

on a more positive notes, i have a few photoshoots planned in the next few days. i asked a few friends to model for me, and they said yes, so that’s good! gotta build that photography portfolio!

listen to: the gossip – 8th wonder


temporary, everything is temporary

summer school is surprisingly a lot of fun. i never thought i’d ever say anything that even comes close to this, but so far, i’m so glad i enrolled for summer school. the teachers are awesome, and it’s so easy.. i mean, it’s a lot of work since they’re intensive classes, but at the same time, it feels easier? it’s hard to explain. in my gym classes, we usually just go outside and jog around the city. yesterday we went on the mount royal (a huge mountain downtown montreal) and we kinda chilled there for a while, it was fun. and my humanities teacher is one of the best teachers i’ve ever had. she’s so laid back, she keeps laughing and making jokes, but like… not stupid jokes. she kinda just laughs at herself constantly. if i’d be a little bit more outspoken, i’d ask her if she could model for me. i’m serious! she looks interesting, in a positive way.

the stressful part though is…. i soon need to start looking at universities. and there are so many of them. how are you supposed to make the right choice? i’m definitely looking at a few in california. i wouldn’t wanna stay in montreal for another 3 or 4 years. i’m bored.. i’ve been living here for 18 years. plus, change can never be bad. and studying a few streets away from the beach? who would say no to that? i love the beach. and the sun!

i added a few pictures on the gallery ! i’m happy that your comments were mostly positive about it. i’ll keep adding more pictures on it, so make sure you check back once in a little while!

i have to go study for an exam that i have tomorrow now.

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listen to: jonas brothers – what did i do to your heart

and yeah, i know, the jonas brothers…. don’t laugh at me! this song is actually decent.