fight like a warrior.
moving to Toronto made me realize one thing; you’ve got to fight for the things you want in life. whether it is a job, a university acceptance, friendship, relationship, you want to become an actor, name it all. not that i hadn’t realized it before, but now more than ever, i’ve somewhat come to understand what the whole idea behind it all happens to be. people will always get in your way, because after all, we all want to succeed, or i’m assuming so. and sadly enough, there isn’t enough room for all of us to succeed in our society, and the only person in charge of whether you will succeed or not is you. yes, you! all you. and of course, in order to succeed at something, you’ve got to be good at it, and you need to be focused. the most depressing thing is when you hear people say “i wanna be famous” or “i wanna be rich” or “i wanna be a movie star”, what the F does that even mean? people aren’t rich just to be rich, there’s always a reason behind it. and same goes with your favorite celebrities. they aren’t were they are simply because they prayed to become “famous”. they’ve work hard (or most of them did) to get where they are at the moment… and are probably working even harder now that they’ve got all these responsibilities.
after moving here, i was without a job for about a month. i did request a transfer from my old work before moving, but you know, to people you’re just another random person on this planet, so your transfer is the last of their priorities. i had to contact the job here about five times, and meet with them in person about three times before i finally got the job. and yes, it did make me feel unwanted, like they didn’t care, didn’t wanna hire me. i was being dramatic and all. but instead of giving up, i just kept trying until i was finally given a starting date. i probably wasn’t their first priority, but that doesn’t mean they didn’t wanna hire me. so if someone says no to you, don’t take it too seriously, just prove yourself to them, and then see what happens.
and same story goes with the second job i’m currently trying to get (yes i know… workaholic much). i applied. got a call back only three weeks later. was scheduled for an interview with the co-manager. then later on was called back for an interview with the manager. then was told by the manager that i had potential and would most likely be hired, and would hear back from them in about a week. a week passes by, no call back. so i follow up, the manager thanks me for following up and says they’re in the middle of all these administration changes and that i should be getting a call back in about two weeks. three weeks pass by, no call back. i freak out. feel unwanted again. feel depressed. feel annoyed. feel upset. don’t wanna call back cause i don’t wanna look obsessed and annoy them. then this morning i was like “so what? why not just call.” took some courage, but i did. then i find out that the old manager was actually fired, and that they hadn’t had access to the administration files and stuff yet. funny eh? i almost peed my pants. all that stress, and for what? nothing. nothing was ever about me. nothing was wrong with me. i was given a new interview date, which will be on monday. hopefully i’m lucky and get the job.
oh, and i just finished registering for my classes for the fall and winter semesters. and thank god i was able to keep my fridays off both semesters. i also tried to make my schedules so that i’d be able to fit in as many work shifts as possible. university isn’t free…! i CANNOT wait to start university though. it’s going to be amazing. i haven’t been in school for a year, i feel braindead. and i’ll be studying something i love (photography) what more could i ask?
so be a warrior. your own little warrior, fighting for all these things you want. and it will get you places. i promise.
oh, and i’ve been posting a lot of new pictures to my deviantart. please check them out by clicking here. and let me know what you think? thank you <3
listen to: v.v. brown – shark in the water
maman, je t’aime !.
my mom & sister are finally coming to visit me in Toronto next week, June 28th! it was really sad to say goodbye to my mom. whenever i would talk to her about moving to Toronto for university, it’s like she wouldn’t pay attention or listen. maybe she was just trying to avoid facing the situation in a way. she’s always told my sister and i that we’re the most beautiful thing she has in life, and that we’re her reason to live. we’ve always been really close. although things kind of changed a bit when her and my dad got separated last Christmas, she moved out while my sister and i stayed with my dad, so we haven’t spent as much time together, still, i love my mom, she’s amazing and i can’t wait to see her.
as you’ve probably noticed if you follow me on twitter, i’ve got a love affair with food. and so does my mom, and my sister too. so i’m excited for when they visit just so i can bring them to all these cool restaurants that i’ve been to so far. not that i eat out everyday, but i enjoy finding out about awesome restaurants (which excludes fast food places).
there’s this one all you can eat sushi place on Queen street called Aji Sai, honestly the best all you can eat place that i’ve been to in my life. because you know.. usually “all you can eat” places tend to suit the “you get what you pay for” say. but the food is actually amazing for the price, it’s around 14$ for lunch, and 22$ for dinner. and their menu isn’t all sushi, but also has all kind of other asian dishes.
then there’s my absolute favorite restaurant so far called Chi-Ko-Roo on Church Street. it isn’t that expensive either, and yet the food is amazing, so is the service and the place itself, very modern looking. oh, and the plates are huge! so you can take the leftovers to go, and pretty much get a second meal out of it! their menu has tons of tasty and healthy food. and they serve you free bread with three different amazing dips. one is hummus, and i think another one is this one Asiago Garlic Artichoke dip. OH, and they’ve got the best Sweet Potato fries i’ve had… so yeah, if you’re ever in the area. you should go! and maybe i’ll bump into you. okay no.. i don’t actually go that often!
my sister also really wants to go to Canada’s Wonderland (Some kind of a Six Flags style attraction park), so we might go there too. i haven’t been in so long..
and that picture on top of the post is of my mom and i, i have no idea how old i was.. but it’s definitely one of my favorite pictures of the two of us!
listen to: cee lo green – what part of forever
new city, new crowds.
my last blog post was about a month ago, i feel like i’ve neglected this blog way too much, but in a way… i’ve moved to Toronto the first week of june, and it was a lot of work. but i’ve talked enough about moving in my previous posts, i think you might know by now that i was planning on moving if you regularly read my blog, and if not, i’ll say it one more time, not to get redundant, i moved to Toronto from Montreal for university. i’ve decided to continue my education in Toronto as their university program for photography is more recognized and professional than the ones available in Montreal. also, a change can never do bad. and if it does so, you can always call it an experience. which we all need.
moving to a new city was definitely an experience (i’ve never moved before.. in 19 years) well, i moved once, but it was in the same city, so that doesn’t count. there was definitely a lot of work to do in my apartment. one thing i’ve learned, Toronto is terrible with apartments. either they’ll cost you an arm, and your soul, or they’ll be extremely average, usually lots of fixing up to do due to the people who lived in it prior to you, and still cost you at least a hand. and maybe a foot. and i’m not even exaggerating! but i was lucky, for the rent, my apartment is pretty big. and after working on it for about two weeks, it’s starting to look better! i started painting my room just a few days ago. i decided to focus on everything but my room first. because when it’s your own place usually your room is the last room you care about… so i focused on the living room/dining room, kitchen and bathroom first. i will probably take pictures of my apartment once it’s all done.
and although Toronto’s considered to be similar to NYC, and all those other overpopulated cities, it’s actually really clean. i was surprised with that. i could even say cleaner than Montreal. but we all know, more taxes, more costs = more benefits. Quebec (the province which Montreal is in) has very low taxes, and most things are free, and if not, pretty cheap, like education and medical services. university here costs more than twice what it costs in Montreal, but there are reasons behind it. you get a much better education. teachers get paid more = they’re more interested in teaching and keeping their job. also the schools get a better funding from the government, which also means that your education quality will be better. who wouldn’t want to learn in an environment that doesn’t feel “cheap” and almost deprived?
now, the crowds. like any city, i’m positive, Toronto has its crowds. i’ve met some really nice people so far, but whenever you find one great friend, you’ve probably went through twenty bad ones before you did so. and that’s okay. you aren’t supposed to have a hundred “friends”. in my book, friends = best friends = family. so in my life, there’s the people “i know”, so acquaintances. then the people i trust, care about, and love, so friends. and that way i don’t get hurt. more people should see it this way. so far i’ve been introduced to the party crowd, who are nice people, don’t get me wrong, but sometimes those people tend to be unreliable. as some really, all their life is about is partying, drinking and social climbing. then some let it all go to their head. and that’s cool, as long as they’re happy doing so!
i’ve also been applying for jobs, and that’s been going well, although…. at first, for about two days, i handed out my resume at a few places, only to notice later that it still had my old Montreal phone number, which has been disconnected because i needed a Toronto number. it was a real FML moment. but i couldn’t help but laugh about it… sometimes i feel like those things only happen to me. i’ve been good so far at turning the stove off after i use it though, but i couldn’t say i haven’t forgotten candles burning a few times when leaving my apartment… i’m getting better at that too though, so don’t worry! it’s all practice. i’ve had a job interview last friday, and it was really well, the lady who was interviewing me was really sweet.. which is never a bad thing during an interview, it definitely makes you feel more comfortable. she was the co-manager, i guess that’s how they do interviews, first the co-manager interviews people, then they refer the ones they liked for the manager to interview, and!!! the manager called me yesterday to set up an interview time on monday! hopefully i get the job. i’ve been jobless for the past 20 days, i’ve been enjoying my freedom a little too much!
i’ve also posted a few new pictures on my deviantart, you can check them out by clicking here!
listen to: stars – the five ghosts
